I like some of the manifestation techniques because they require you to get really clear on the goals and to make an effort to achieve them. But I realised that I was becoming too dependent on emotional work at the expense of real physical world action. My only activity in pursuit of my goals became doing shadow work and emotion work. Often, I would put the pursuit of my goals at bay because I needed time to do ‘identity work’ or something.

As a result, I found little to no changes in my life. I became so obsessed with emotionally expanding that I forgot that the purpose of the emotional expansion is to allow myself to do the actions I need to do to achieve my goals. In fact, I was so concerned with emotional expansion and identity work and living from the end that i emotionally started to deal with (what appeared to me to be) limiting blocks that the future me would hahve. But this was a never ending well of psychological issues and so I found myself spending more and more time doing work yet feeling more and more distant from satisfaction. The worst, as I realise now, is that I cannot really grasp the limitations in the future because the problems that will appear then will be dealt with a different consciousness instead of my current one.

I believe that manifestation can place you in ‘out of mind’ aligned action which you look back and wonder how you did that or the chances of finding yourself in such a location. I have a few memories like that that give me a sense of wonderment and joy about the world. They remind me of the rule that the world is non linear and my actions produces a sum greater than its part.

But, ultimately, there must be real ACTION. In circumstances where the plan to acheive the goals is clearly laid out and there are real steps that can take you to the goals, forcing yourself to go deeper on visualisation or manifestation is just an excuse. An excuse to not to do the work. An excuse to get swallowed up in the preperation of work so you feel good but never good enough because feeling good enough is a risk. There is a point when the action must be surrendered to faith but at the conception of it, there must be ACTION.

There are a few goals I have which feel so big to me that I know I need to look at what is stopping me from pursuing them. Like applying for a Masters degree at Columbia University or NYU. But there are other goals where the action is so clear that to not do that in lieu of more manifestation techniques is to introduce new blind spots that stop me from reaching my goals. Like my goal to save money – there are clear ways to stop spending money, there are clear ways to make more money. To continue to work on ‘money blocks’ is just an excuse to delay the goal.

There is time for action and time for planning. The hardest part is not getting addicted to the planning. Because I will never be able to think or feel myself to clarity until I simply just take action. Taking action is a risk but it is a risk necessary to move the world forward. Now I am just working on ‘closing the gap’, i.e. the gap between thinking of doing something and actually doing it. What comes in the gap and how can it transversed, circumvented, tunneled through, etc.

One of the quotes that keeps coming up for me is ‘just because the future is uncertain does not mean it is a negative’. And that has made me realise my own belief that I was using over planning as a way to ensure a positive outcome and was preventing a feeling of being uncertain as a way to prevent a bad outcome. The above quote reminds me that it will be uncertain and that is okay because there is no causal link between something being uncertain and something being negative. Ultimately, that is the risk that action requires – to embrace the uncertainty and move forward.